I've always struggled with anxiety. For as long as I can remember, anxiety has ruled my life and it's controlled my inner dialogue. My anxious thoughts remind me I'm inferior and they convince me everyone is judging me. Anxiety decides I need to try on 50 outfits before I head out the door. Anxiety decides… Continue reading Trapped by Social Anxiety
Tag: shame
Vanished
There’s nothing you can say to me that I haven’t said to myself, much harsher, with blades, and drugs, and self spoken hate. The shame, and the guilt eat me alive, every night my head drops. I haven’t forgiven myself for the fights we fought, the fights I caused, with my temper, with… Continue reading Vanished
Confessional #2
I had promised a confessional/thought of the day blog post when I started and I have yet to have another one until now. These are just my thoughts for the day. The biggest battle with bipolar disorder that I face on a daily basis is the shame and the guilt, the aftermath of an up… Continue reading Confessional #2