According to Merriam-Webster, happy is defined as
notably fitting, effective, or well adapted
In the beginning, it’s hard to tell the difference between genuine happiness and hypomania.
I have issues deciphering between the two. So many times I’ve felt that I was happy but it turned out to be a hypomanic episode.
So these past few weeks, I’ve been struggling with figuring out what I’m stable/happy or I’m just in another hypomanic episode since I just pulled myself out of another bipolar depression.
Because of this depression episode, my bupropion was upped. I’ve been feeling a major shift in my mood.
But I think there are a few big differences I tend to forget when I find myself in a hypomanic state.
- In hypomania, I only sleep a few hours a night. This is different than insomnia. When I’m going through insomnia, I feel tired and I just want to sleep. When I’m hypomanic, I don’t feel tired whatsoever. I have all the energy in the world.
- Hypomania makes me feel euphoric.
- I have zillions of ideas about my life or creative projects but no focus or determined plans or goals.
Reminding myself of these guidelines, I think it’s safe to say I’m just feeling stable and happy.
I’ve been sleeping well minus one stressful night this week. I don’t feel euphoric, just at home with positive vibes coming from the future. I have a few creative projects on my mind but I know how to get there. I’m ready to up my writing business game since I’m stable.
I have clear goals and motivation.
Doees anyone else struggle with knowing the difference between the two? How do you tell the difference in what mood you’re experiencing? Drop me a comment, lovely people.
Also, I uploaded another video. I need to practice talking in front of a camera because I stutter and stumble over words. I apparently don’t pronounce Ts either. Every time I say “irritability” it sounds like “irr-ability”. Lol. I got work to do on my channel. I also need a better cam eventually.
But I’d love it if you dropped a comment on my video with constructive criticism. I’m up for honesty, just not hateful comments!
As usual, I love you all. You’re amazing. ❤