The New Year Blues

The first few days of 2020 have been tough on me. I was down and out. Other people are thinking ahead but I'm always thinking of the past. I'm not anywhere where I would like to be in life. At first, I thought I was slipping back into a bipolar depression episode and was terrified.…

On the Outside I Look Lazy

On the outside, I look lazy. I lie in my bed, too fatigued to move and too tired to concentrate. On the outside, I look lazy. I'm curled up in my blanket like it's my cocoon. I've fallen down the YouTube rabbit hole because it's the only thing that boosts my dopamine and serotonin. I've…

Working On Us Week #6

It's week 6 for Beckie at Beckie's Mental Mess mental health prompts! Go check out her blog if you haven't and join in to help further advocate the seriousness of mental health and mental illness. Prompt #1 There are so many varieties of depression out there, such as Bipolar Depression and (SAD) Seasonal Affective Disorder.…

Opinions?

My lovely loyal readers, I would love you opinions on a few things. First, I'm considering moving any articles I've written about mental health on my writer blog over to this blog. And then turning that blog into a blog about freelance writing. This blog would have both informational articles & my experiences. What do…

Dear September

Dear September, Every year you hit me with a mixed bag of emotions. September, the month of fall. The month when the gorgeous, dead leaves fall from the towering trees, when the hefty walnuts begin to surround my house and hit my roof at night, lost in a dark abyss, and when the smell of…

Seeking Approval

Growing up we believed those we thought knew the secrets of the universe-- our parents, our grandparents, our brothers and sisters-- were made of perfection. Perfection has the smell of fresh linen and the taste of strawberries with memories we cherished. We held their opinions, beliefs, and advice in our hands like precious rubies. We…

Papercut/Just An Update

I have been feeling down and working on freelance work but I should have an informational post coming soon as well as possibly a guest blogger which should be pretty fucking cool. Some days I get lost in my head and my thoughts consume me. So I leave you with this some Linkin Park. P.S.…

Incessant Ramblings and My Thoughts on Conformity

There’s always been this fear of failure that’s hung over me most of my life. Or has it been a fear of success? The only thing I’m sure of is that something is holding me back. It paralyzes me. A bowling ball is dropped on my chest and the room starts to shrink. It makes…

Apologies

I haven't posted recently for a number of reasons. Puppies, stress, bad sleeping habits. I didn't want anyone to think I've abandoned my blog. Never! I'll be back on my grind soon. You are all amazing, never forget it.

Afraid to Fly

I’m afraid to fly. I’m not afraid to fall. I’ve fallen so many times before. I perfect failure. It’s my specialty. Getting back up takes the strongest motivation combined with energy and a strong mental capacity. Do I have any of this stamina left in my heart? Crawling myself up out of that well; the…